https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bc7Lt2ppxFY

As you might could have guessed in my latest, "real journal", which is already a bit older (im talking about this one: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9594112/ ), my mood in the last days, weeks, months went pretty muchon a downhill drive. like....a hard one.

We already have past half september and if you look on "how much" i have done, its kinda nothing compared to maybe other months.

Artwise, its kinda dead. I have some ideas, yes, but i dont know how or why i even should draw them. I have even here a picture i work "RIGHT NOW" on it JUST to "finally finish it" but if im REALLY in the mood is another story, really.

I dont wanna "force" myself to draw coz forced art ends up bad anyway and makes it look worse than it should or could be. I really might have to take a HARD BREAK from my art till i feel better somewhat somehow.

But than its not only artwise. My mood right now is really like in the basement. I wanted to create a game as for the one sample - made a trailer and nothing else.

I mean, i even collected IDEAS and posted them in a journal but im really like "meh, why should i even try" right now.

Srsly, right now, all i mostly do is i play some games on steam, IF i even have the mood right now, and thats it. I dont feel in the mood for drawing, playing, creating games, ANYTHING right now.

So yea, i might sound odd if i say it here but

i might really have to take a hard break just for my own good from literally anything im doing somehow somewhat.

Sure, now you can say "oh but you created a furiotic movie this month!" (for people on Newgrounds: I didnt posted it there so you have to go there to see what im talking about and have an account there coz its in the ADULT settings: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38238354/ )

Well yea....But even Faly noticed that something was "off" with me. Normaly, wile we do "those", we had fun (NOT in the obvious way you might think.) and made jokes WILE we record those or even fool around sometimes (trust me, if we ever would create a "behind the screen" video, it would be longer than the normal video).

But this time?

I was more like "ok lets get it over with" for the most part. Sure i had some fun working on it but it was like a "meh, what ever" mood for me.

So yea...i dont if someone is willing to help me somehow or has an idea how i could change the situation (if you keep the said other journal maybe in mind) but i feel like right now im some how very unmotivated. I dont think its not even like im "lazy", i really WANT to work on the game as one sample - its just like why should i even go for it, you know?