Serious here to say that April was not really "my month" can already be shown by the fact that i was not really in the mood to create one of my "normaly" monthy journals. No really, i had no idea WHAT i should write or do in this month artwise, gamewise or whatever - literally. Looking back at my art from April, yea, lot stuff is weird and some stuff are like "out of the blue", not bad by all meanings but odd.
With that said, welcome to may, the month which should "barely" any better.
Since April (as you can guess...) i kinda have this "no idea" problem. Its like i really have no idea what i should do or draw or similar. I know as for May that there will be "soon" a picture i wanna draw since "its the date for" (thats a hint~).
Else, i was looking AND thinking about the stuff i "kinda" left behind or "on ice" wile i wonder if i should go back and finally finish it or work on it.
they are 2 BIG samples i want to name and call out since those 2 gave me really a headace over the month:
Reason one: Daredevil 2.
Im srs here, i "WANT" to finish this game. Its nice to play but the fact that i literally "CANT FINISH IT" coz of the reason that i have to create "boss sprites" which i cant coz im not a good pixel artist fucking BOTHERS me to hell. Im srs here, literally everything else which "is" still missing would be done from me in like some days of work - sure i need to test stuff and co but srsly. It just BUGS me to hell that i have this game LITERALLY 80% DONE sitting RIGHT next to me which pretty much "SCREAMS" for me to finish it. Thats ALSO the reason why my other game i "tried" to work on is also kinda on hold since i wanna really fucking finish the other game first god dang it...
Reason two: A comic idea.
Pretty much now for a long long long LONG time, i have a idea for a Comic, a LONG comic, with (and for) my Spy Vs Spy characters. The reason why i dont began to draw it is basicly this:
If i would go on and draw a comic, it would need a hell of time to finish it and since its not "just a small comic strip" but more like a WHOLE STORY (with some 18+ elements~) i would work on it over months - WHICH ALSO MEANS i would draw the comic and ONLY the comic, no time to draw something else than maybe some side-special pictures (like as for my birthday or halloween, you know what i mean, my special characters) but else my focus would be the comic and here is the problem:
Not many people seem to "enjoy" the Spy Vs Spy stuff that it would be really "worth" it. Sure, normaly i could say "to hell with it and i draw what i want", which i sure would even go and do but, again, the Spy Vs Spy fandom is not everywhere and addign the fact that this comic WOULD have a touch of 18+ elements MIGHT make it more a thing for Rule 34 lovers and not the furryfandom nor the Spy Vs Spy fandom IF i really go "to deep" with the 18+ stuff.
Said that, even if i say "yay i draw it anyway" my worries are that its just not worth the effort. The last time i have drawn a comic is already Y-E-A-R-S ago and at this time my engish sucked (more than as it does today) and my art was not even "that good" but i tried to create a funny and romantic (somewhat) comic - which i did in the form of "lovely Longing" as you can see here (FA; you need an account there to see it since its 18+!): https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/watheanum/folder/325280/LL-Comic-2009-NSFW
If i remember correctly, i worked VERY HARD (for its time) ONE. MONTH. on this comic working all day n night to finish each page. Was it worth it? As for the time, i was mostly "new" around the artpages and people seem to enjoy them (at least on the pages i uploaded the comic). It doesnt gave me "fame and faves" but it was at least a comic people "enjoyed" since well...OBVIOUS~~~
With that said im just worried that even if i go and draw said Spy Vs Spy Comic, the feedback would be ZERO and that the effort is not worth it the pages i wasted on it, EVEN if i have already a storyline and stuff in mind (like for real). Again, its not like i dont want to but than i would mostly draw this comic and this comic ONLY...and i know a lot people dotn just "watch" me for said stuff.
I think you can see why i have some headaces right now and over the last weeks as well. I just duno what to do or "how" to do.
Said here, over the month i ODDLY got a LOT questions asked which i will now answer here again so i dont need to answer them again and again XD so here you can read them "again" if youre lokking for answers:
Q: Where is your Furiotic movies? / What happend to Faly PH?/ Will they be back up sometime?
A: Some time ago Falys (and my) PH went down since PH changed the rules and stuff. They literally wiped A LOT peoples profiles there so not "just" ours. Since this happend, our Furiotic movies (and similar what Faly posted) are down. Sure, i have the copys here saved on my harddrive so no worries about that BUT:
What we need is now a "new place" for such videos. The problem is: the videos are ADULT FURRY 18+ videos which not "every 08/15" video upload-page is willing to host - adding also the fact that the later videos of ours getting REALLY HUGE (sizewise) - like as sample the last we made was over 1 GB big... - We are looking for a new host for such videos and here is the problem: It has to be a "legit" and "virusfree" host and not any "p0rnside" you just jump in and go for a quick wank (i guess you guys know what i mean...)...AND again adding the fact our content is Furry p0rn makes it even more complex.
SO if you know "such page", tell me about and we will reupload our stuff there.
Q: Will there be new Furiotic content?
A: So far, no. Again, if we get a new "home" for our already older content, Faly would do create more with me (in fact she already asked me about).
Q: Where is "Starvixen 2"/ "Erowave"?
A: Again, as i said, its basicly on hold as long as Daredevil 2 isnt finish WHICH BASICLY IS ON HOLD AS WELL SO....yea...just dont ask about it for now XD
So yea, if you have anything to say, ask or similar, leave a comment. would be nice to see some other minds and thoughts about this stuff as well. ;P