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First things first

First, as of right now im not just low on money but my health problems came back. keeping it short as of right now i have some backproblems and actual Lymphedema. Im working on it but this will be a progress to work on.

Next, Im having problems with my mobile phone and i might be of need in donations (the addition that i have to get medicin on a good base and have to pay them makes is also a harder part...) so if youre so free you can always donate me some money viva my ko-fi here: https://ko-fi.com/watheanum

Since this all is happening, im also running low on ideas on what i could draw - hinting said artblock from my other journal already. I do have 1 more idea for the special friday this comming week but than im basically dry. I try to keep some ideas i got already in mind but not to many were useful. might need to take a pause on that, duno yet.

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And now we miiiiight take a big one, the big one in the room and i have to be honest here.

As of the last years, i think (and at least on DA), i know i had to post something because i had to get something of my chest and it came always out missunderstood and in a wrong way.

I tr to sound right this time and people might will get confused of it but i will explain:

I DONT hate Pridemonth but i do hate the people which "celebrate" it.

I had to get this of my chest because i know some people were always confused from my side of this because i do have friends which are lesbians, gay, trans or bi - I mean best fact is that SL-Faly IS really bisexual and i knew her for a very very VERY long time by now and i dont care what she is or what shes doing in her bed time.

This is the problem - "i dont care".

I dont care of that because why should i? If you have a good time with a male, female or what ever in you bed, why should anyone care, right? This is the thing to many people in pridemonth "do" make a fuzz about, the sexuallity part - but wasnt pridemonth ORIGINALLY made that people with different sexuallity are handled equal? - ALL equal to be fair?

This is the part im talking about.

As of late, "pridemonth" feels not anymore as for what it was used for, that said people with different sexuallities are handled all the same like most peoples standard "hetro" people.

This is something respect because, as i said, i dont care what people are and so should you. Again, who should care what and who they love in their bedtime anyway (well, as long as its not a crime of course)?

But heres the problem

As i said, as of late, pridemonth feels more like a "thing" used like Valentines day for advertising and commercial - rainbow flag everywhere just because, it literally has even no meaning behind it. just "bang" a rainbow flag up and tell the people in your store youre also "pride" and make good advertising.

This...has nothing to do with the origins of pridemonth anymore - and yes, i hate it.

I hate this part because people overdo it - and in germany its worse.

As i said, i do respect people which "DO" fight in pridemonth to be equally handled by the society...

...but why do people over do it "SO" much that people which are hetrosexual feel also somewhat "suppressed"?

Again, Respect for the people which work their asses of to be equally handled by said society but showing their asses around, waving their dicks around or having sex on the streets so "everyone" can see that they indeed ARE "gay" or "Lesbians" or what ever...think about what youre doing there. Do you really think that will add something to your scoreboard other than that you "showed" those "different people" who has "other kind of sex"?

No, seriously, that doesnt help. Not in the slightest - and thats why people WORLD WIDE began to actually hate pridemonth.

As i said, i dont hate pridemonth because, again, everyone should be handled equal and with that said EVERYONE should be handled equal - gay people, lesbians, bi sexuals - even hetrosexuals.

But why it comes that even the sexuallity-flag for hetros is literally...black and white? This feels like a remark, a sign which shows that hetros are monotone, the bad people.

This is what i mean and talk about: If said "pride" people want to be handled equally, shouldnt they also be equal as well to everyone else? How it comes that "we", since im hetrosexual, are marked with a colorless flag if we are all the same people at the end? You love your lover, what else is the differ? the gender? the skincolor? Srsly, why and who should care about that? Arent we all equal at the end?

So why the flag thing? I really feel like, sometimes, i did something wrong BECAUSE im hetrosexual - wile again, i respect everyone with different sexuallity.

I know i did write now a wall of text but than, you have to becareful nowadays what you say because people EASILY missunderstand so ones again:

there is, form my side at least, no problem for me about pridemonth - as long as you do in pridemonth "that" for what it was intentionally "invented", fight for your rights to be equally handled in our nowadays society.

But you use pridemonth only to...

- literally make advertising or commercial business with it

- dont really "fight" for your rights but insteed only "show off" what kind of sex you do normally

- dont really WANT an equally between sexuallities and literally judge every other sexuallity or hetrosexuals only because they are "seen" as "normal people" in nowadays society

- use said month only as weapon for your own problems in nowadays society and blame it on others

Than no, i dont like it.

We are all humans, we should be equally handled, no matter what gender, size, skincolor what ever "borders" you think exists. I dont care.

Im maybe "just" a "stupid" hetrosexual guy now here but again, most friends which are not hetro are with me there. Some even do fight still to be handled equally and i even support them and i hope people understand my opinion there.

SHOULD there still be something wrong or missunderstood, feel free to leave a comment and we can talk it out. Again, im also sorry if there "might" be something written wrong, reminder im german and not perfectly writting/speaking english so i really only hope the said wall of text makes sense.

thanks for understanding and reading.