a wile ago i wrote in my journal that my dad lays in hospital coz of lung problems (its not corona). up to this day, he still is in the hospital. 3 weeks...

today, very early in the morning, we got a call from the hospital from the doctor of my dad...it doesnt look good...it looks...very...very very bad...

they said, if we want to see him ones again, "now is the time"...

my whole family went there and yes...its his last walk...he was happy that he saw us ones again but the doctor said already, its nearly to impossible that he will ever come out of his bed again...

my dad...is dying...

I couldnt take the view of him anymore and i tried to stay strong....very very strong...i had to leave...

My mom and my younger brother stayed at the hospital with my dad but its basicly clear that my dad will not make it...

right now im at home and try to get my mind clear but i doubt im able to do anything right now...im so, so sorry...