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Sup ppl. Name is W.A. the Anum. Call me Walter or just "W" if you want. I create a lot stuff, mostly artworks or games. In the past i also recorded music and made pen and papers. I create such things mostly "for the fun" so i hope you stay and enjoy.

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Posted by WAtheAnum - December 1st, 2021


This might be a text wall im not sure, just warned here again.


But yea...i kinda have to leave this here since im kinda done with this shit.

Yes, im talking about corona and the epidemic world wide - or at least the "german part" of it.


I mean look, let me explain the comming outburst of rant with some word and you will see...

Here in germany, the infection numbers are rising - like srsly hella fast rising. We all know its a fucking death epidemic so how it comes their are people, still running on the streets down there and be like "this whole thing is a joke"? Even our politics dont really try something against the epidemic but only want us to use our "natural common sense".


WELL look how far it brought us dear politicians!

Im srs here to say that, sure, even i think everyone in this world should have a working brain "SOMEWHAT" which also means they SHOULD have said "natural common senses".


...Why the hell does politicians ABOLISHED the mask requirement in schools and public transport IN SAID MIDDLE OF AN DEATH EPIDEMIC FFS?!


...Why does parents want "now" their childs to come back stay at home and not go to school "right now" BUT before they actually PROTESTED ON THE STREETS that they childs "getting stupid" since they were sitting "only at home"??


...WHY THE FUCKING HELL do people still travel VOLUNTARILY into called "heavy epidemic areas" at other ends of the world JUST BECAUSE they wanna have "A VACATION", NOT even CARRING about that they HIGHLY potentionally COULD get infected with OTHER, MORE DEADLIER variants of the SAID FUCKIND DEATH VIRUS AND POTENTIONALLY NOT "JUST DIE" FROM IT BUT INFECT OTHERS WITH IT AS WELL!?!?


Im super fucking serious here. THIS kind of stuff let me not just facepalm but reconise AND understand the old Einstein-quote more and more:


"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I’m not sure about th’universe!"


Are people growing into idiots? are they BORN that way? Srsly, Everyday i watch the news here and and i can only puke the more i see and hear. "more infected day by day", "politicans THINK about to make a mandatory vaccination", "politicans wanna bring back the mask requirment in schools"...LIKE WHY THE FUCK WAS IT ABOLISHED IN THE FIRST PLACE!?!?!?


Am i to stupid to understand that? Or are people WILLINGLY to ignorant to use their BRAINS for ones? I mean, in such day, THINK, we cant sadly rely on politicians if they do shit like "THIS". Like: IF the politicans SAY, as i go with this sample now, that we dont need to wear masks in schools, do you guys REALLY think in this TIME right now its actually "GOOD" to "obey" that shit???


I srsly cant anymore and dealing with such shit let me sometimes think i should run for the chancellery...


Posted by WAtheAnum - November 16th, 2021


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPqaMP-gD2o


Welp, first, thanks to everyone who came by and left a comment of similar at my other birthday journal.

Everyone who didnt, well, shame on you i guess.


Im sorry i come up so late "now" to say thanks but lets say, i didnt feel well the last days. In fact, i feel kinda sad and very, VERY down the last days. I duno really why but lets say it also could be the season i guess.


I got some ideas i can work on, picture wise i mean, but i somehow have nearly no motivation. One would be a special series from our "special space vixen" (i already work on) which is a small picture series i had in mind SINCE i didnt draw her this year a lot - in fact just 1 time as a "warning picture" but that was it.


And since we are in the topic:


Faly told me there will be NO calendar for the next year - at least no "Special" one.

She was very upset as well as she literally got no attention anywhere where i asked who would like one.


Just ONE upvote. ONE. from all my 5 accounts i tried to help her making "advertising" for, ONE vote.


This is srs sad and i can say i can understand if shes not doing one for the next year - so here just saying (ex. this one person), you have to blame yourself for this. We gave you long enough time, literally.


As for another topic, i might would like to ask again, if you enjoy my art, maybe you can donate me a bit :3 of course you dont have to and again im not begging for money but since Faly isnt doing (so it seems) anything this year and i would also like to help her (and a bit my family) out i just thought i leave that here ^^


Why? oh No real reason. Maybe i could say here "never skip leg day"...

(graphical!!!)

https://i.imgur.com/xZoUcnI.jpeg

And just in case someone is going to ask, yes. it hurt. a lot.


Posted by WAtheAnum - November 6th, 2021



Posted by WAtheAnum - October 26th, 2021


Ok this is important, at least somewhat.


Normaly around this time, my friend Faly would do a special Halloween picture series as well as a special picture series for her Birthday which was on the 20 october if youre wondering.

Lately, Faly didnt feel well since, so i heard, her birthday didnt "went that great" so she might doesnt made a special series for her birthday this year (well coz 1. its already over and 2. again, she had not a good day) and as for Halloween, its also unknown so far.


But those are more side-news. Whats MORE important is, shes asking if its even "worth" making a new calendar for the next year so shes asking who would really WANT one. It would be the same, pricewise, as last year with a SFW and NSFW version. IF she would also do "extra" pictures, she doesnt know. IF enough people would like to get a copy, she would maybe even do such but right now, she doesnt even know if its worth to "make" one for this year.


So if youre interested, PLEASE leave a comment but only IF you REALLY ARE interested!!!


Posted by WAtheAnum - October 10th, 2021


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z2CyA-qvadE


I normaly dont write many journals mid-month since i do one nearly at the end to "wrap up what happend" but holy cow, october is kinda nuts for me.


First, so many games, like literally to many games at ones i got, would get and so on.

The Metroid is just "ONE" of the games i would like to get but i ALREADY got Diablo 2 resurrected for my switch...and centipede recharged...AND ghosts n goblins resurrection...

So yea...about that. And lets not forget i also got Unmetal on Steam as well.


So i duno why but they is now a lot stuff, TO much stuff i could play.


EVEN GAME-BUILD WISE i have another idea i wanna try to get done with another day! JESUS!

Here adding something: Yes, Daredevil 2 is still a game i wanna finish but still have this boss-sprite problem. I will think about that another day for sure. As for Erowave, this game is actually now "on hold" as well since Faly, the maker of the pictures, did already so many pictures for my other game, "Space Hunt", that she actually needs a timeout and also think about "what" she could offer - which is fine by me coz i barely really started to work on Erowave anyway.


And now Art wise...im srs here, i have so many ideas JUST for this month which i "TRY" to finish (since most of them are halloween themed) that i duno anymore XD

- First, the 3 last Cosplay pictures with my Girls. Here i already have all the cosplay ideas, gladly, and already thinking about how i will draw them makes me feel good about. In fact, the next one is already in the making and should be done in the next day(s). So that alone are 3 new pictures and 3 ideas.

- Next would be a picture, like every year, with Somber, which is ANOTHER idea and ANOTHER picture i should be done this month XD

- ALSO "normally" there would eb a picture with my 2 spys as well! which is ANOTHER 2 characters i would draw - counting it as 2 pictures-work days - which is ANOTHER picture idea XD Holy cow.

- After that i also got ideas for a smaller furiotic series AND a cartoon furiotic picture with the 30s cartoo version of Faly! Ok i dont need to finish that THIS month but still god dang it XD

- Also i got somehow the idea for an Cow bikini series? HOW even? XDDD


So yea, i duno why or where i got all those ideas but im sure i have SOMETHING to draw over this month PLUS next month XD


So stay tuned for some nice cosplays in the near future hahahaha XD


Posted by WAtheAnum - September 28th, 2021


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WthXjYSigSk


Its now like 3 months ago my father died and some days ago, 19th september, it was "normally" his birthday and just soem days later, 22., a good friend from me died last year already...

Time goes by so fast, im still sad about all that stuff and sure need time to recover. Right now, i struggle with a "normal" day and how it should be, like getting up back early or actually finding motivation to actually "do" something - since our garden looks like there could be pokemon everywhere (if someone gets this joke). Still, it also has to be the right weather and will fall comming - and the last days of summer here were already raining-hell - i really have to find the right time to do "anything" outside.


Else, im "ok". I guess...

I have suddendly a lot ideas which i will draw soon - even already for Halloween cosplays (but no poses) for my main Girls and sure other ones i gona draw soon i hope. Again, WAY to much ideas all of a sudden at i can say, artwise im sure not dead there.


As for everything else, i got myself lately into Diablo 2 again on my switch at least. I kinda enjoy it, even if i play right now alone, sadly. As for other games on PC, right now, i duno "what", for the most time, i should play or could do, mostly sitting there, listen to music or watchign YT videos. I really try to come back to an normal setup...


Another thing!

Today i posted another picture from Falys Special Calendar 2021 and Faly asked me the other day if people "REALLY" want her to create another calendar for the next years so are you intrested? It would be again maybe 5-10 bucks for a full calendar she sure said and it would help support her again.


This time she also asks if people want her to actually stay in her "Main" Vixen form or do you guys also want her to do other shots from her other characters like her Skunk girl, Novakid, Klonoa (female), Enderwoman, Krystal and like? I mean i love how the calendars were so i dont need her to change into something else but maybe you want another form or something so tell it here viva comment :D


ELSE she might doesnt do another one since the one from 2021 got already not much supported, sadly. So for the better leave your opinions about the calendar down here as comment. :3


As for me, again, im kinda ok i guess, sure i have sad moments and times but i still try to look forward as hard as it is right now. I know i have to come back to normality and reality and that stuff went the way they are right now, as sad as it maybe is...


Posted by WAtheAnum - August 20th, 2021


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XpaAMaBG-0Y


Hello again everyone.

Im sorry that i basicly didnt wrote a "real" journal the last months next to a shoutout for a friend and a rent about pokemon unite...

The last months were a hard roller coaster for me where my world was basicly in pieces and i had to stand up and on a stable ground again - at least somewhat.


Yes, The lose of my dad was and still is hard for me - mostly coz im a person which tries to find a good, logical reason why hes gone now.

Since in the journals before, i was really not in the mood, time and moment to wrote what "exactly" was going on, i own you guys a small explanation what happend and than you might understand it a bit more since it was all so fast...


My dad was a person which survived a lot of sick- and illnesses, begining with actual, DEADLY shingles to lung cancer to actual his last "bigger" sickness he had: polymeric hypotension ("polymere hypotonie") - or pulmonary hypertension.

My dad survived literally everything up to this point - he even won the fight against his cancer. The hypertension he had was also diagnosed as not deadly and it never was, so it was said. Sure, at home, he felt kinda tired after going up the stairs or simple things but it was never something someone said that he would actually "die" about - even our family doctor said he will come over it and its not deadly.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVCgstds7xQ


Around 8 weeks before my dad died, we actually went to our said family doctor since he had some pain in his shoulder and problems to breath. He (the doctor) said it was not deadly, again, and that its just some usual pain with the shoulder since my dad works to much in the basement on his workbench, creating things there. Yes, my dad was a worker on his own. He created things and had a whole room full with workbenches, tools, machines like tablesaws, drilling machines and everything and -tool a hobbyworker can literally dream off. It was always his thing to create stuff like tables, for our or other peoples homes, shelves, chairs and way bigger stuff - hell our whole kitches is created around his work. And to go really further without lying: The whole house we are living in, every stone, every plant, every little grain of sand were touched and placed here by the hands of my dad.

Sure this sounds maybe a bit "implausible" but its true. As i was little, we lived in a small apartment but since we all grown bigger and bigger, my dad was building a own house for our family. The ground our house was standing on was basicly nothing but a big hole in the ground which he filled with dirt. He did always his best till the very end. Always.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kNk7-azr6E


3 weeks before my dad died, he had actual bigger and stronger pain "around" his heart area so he said. Said that, he called for the ambulance to get him into the hospital. There, he was his last 3 weeks, sadly.

Still, even there it was always said to us it was NOT deadly. He will come home and even he was full off hope that he will come back home. We always talked viva phone with him and it was always nice to hear him how much hope he had in the work of the doctors, the hospital and its nurses...but it should be...

They gave him some medicin, pills, which, so he said and so it seem, "backfired" and attacked/infected his kidneys - the medicin was to strong for his body so it seem. So they tried another way with some softer, liquid medicine which didnt helped him heal the attacked kidneys nor did it help a lot to get the water in his lungs out (look for the said "pulmonary hypertension").

Still he was full of hope till the end. In his "diary" (my dad KINDA had one) he had left at home, his last words before he went into the hospital, he wrote even there down that "Ich hoffe alles kommt wieder ins Lot" - which in englisch would say something like "I hope everything will be OK again"...

He even went so far and, so as we learned later, wrote something like a diary in the time he was in hospital...

Every second day there, he wrote i wanted to be home.

he wanted to be home with his family again...with his wife...his dog...his family...

He wanted to go fishing again and work on his workbench, finish several projects he couldnt finish...

He never thought about to "die" or that something like "dieing" was even an opinion since he was full of hope and even the doctors never gave up on him till the very end...


It...was really hard reading that all after he past away, trust me.

And even in his last days, he was creative and began to draw again and you can see, by his simple art he often used - mostly doodles - around his last days what he was feeling.

We found a last picture on the papers in the hospital which...was clearly saying what he wanted if youre good with art and can read "between the lines".

He called the piece "on the window" ("am fenster"). I scanned it so you can see it as well...

https://www.dropbox.com/s/suno0xx6aml1bd2/father-atthewindow-SCAN12-06-2021-Small.png?dl=0


He always wanted to be back at home...

As hard was the sudden call we got from the hospital in the morning that, if we wanted to see our dad one last time alive we should come now for the best...

My mother, my brother and me, we were in shock since, again, it was NEVER said he was "THAT" sick - it was always said it was not deadly. So in said shock, we get quickly dressed and called our other family members, told them whats happening and drove to the hospital...


There was our dad...laying in his hospital bed, carefree smiling and happy seeing us again for his last time, all together in his hospital room...

It was very early in the morning and he didnt spoke a lot, he was..."sleeping"...more or less. From time to time, a nurse came and took care of him - and us. Some hours later, the doctor which looked after him came into the room an basicly told us that this is his last walk...


We call cried and some of us, including me..., were not strong enough to keep watching how hes slowly going in this state to the other side...

Some of us actually had a breakdown on the floor of the hospital and our uncle drove some of us back home to relax and come down.

My mother and smaller brother, stood by my dad...

I was at home and was PRAYING in tease that my dad would come back home another day. That all would be "good" again...but than..shortly after 8 PM (my timezone), i got a phone call from my smaller brother which stood with my mother at the hospital...

He told me that exactly to the strike of the bell at 8 PM, our father found the way to the other side...


He always wanted to be back at home...

As hard was the sudden call we got from the hospital in the morning that, if we wanted to see our dad one last time alive we should come now for the best...

My mother, my brother and me, we were in shock since, again, it was NEVER said he was "THAT" sick - it was always said it was not deadly. So in said shock, we get quickly dressed and called our other family members, told them whats happening and drove to the hospital...


There was our dad...laying in his hospital bed, carefree smiling and happy seeing us again for his last time, all together in his hospital room...

It was very early in the morning and he didnt spoke a lot, he was..."sleeping"...more or less. From time to time, a nurse came and took care of him - and us. Some hours later, the doctor which looked after him came into the room an basicly told us that this is his last walk...


We call cried and some of us, including me..., were not strong enough to keep watching how hes slowly going in this state to the other side...

Some of us actually had a breakdown on the floor of the hospital and our uncle drove some of us back home to relax and come down.

My mother and smaller brother, stood by my dad...

I was at home and was PRAYING in tease that my dad would come back home another day. That all would be "good" again...but than..shortly after 8 PM (my timezone), i got a phone call from my smaller brother which stood with my mother at the hospital...

He told me that exactly to the strike of the bell at 8 PM, our father found the way to the other side...


It was...a hard time...and after that...i really cant explain it. It was to deep of a shock...not just for me but for all...as would god have called him to the other side exactly as the bell striked 8 PM...


The days after his death were sad and still are. As i said, "our" little world is shatterd and we still try to get up from what happend but we still look where our dad is and some of us search for a reason like i still do.

I try, day by day, to tell myself im a strong person and that i have to stay strong...

My dad said to me with his last words to me:


"Walter, youre my boy. Youre now the big man in the house. Please promise me, look for me after your mother and our family...ok? Please, stay strong for me ok?"

...He said that as would it be nothing...He said that with a god dang nice smile in my face wile i was in freaking tease...


Since that, i try, TRY to stay strong...

...but i cant...i simply cant...

I really try, day by day, to help everyone i can and look after my mother, helping her with the homework and shop in the stores...

But sometimes i have to get into my room, alone, listen to the musics i listed up here in this journal and cry...

Im not a strong person and i doubt i will ever be, i try from the outside but from the inside, i cant...


The songs i listed up in this journal were the ones we also used for his funeral - some english and some in german. They were fitting for the most part since we kept the funeral very "normal" since my dad wasnt a fan from formal things. He was a friend from the nature and similar so we all were there as we were. Of course, in black but not in "tie and collar" as we say here in germany.


It was a small but nice funeral and he has a nice place at our graveyard, maybe 10 minutes away from here with the car so we can always look for him.

Some days ago, he finally got his gravestrone from the stonemason so he finally found his peace there...


Im sorry that this journal went that long but first and formost, it felt good writting that down and secondly, i kinda think i own it to all you people and the people which actually donated for his funeral.

Yes, again, thanks to everyone who spread the word and donated some money. With your help, i got around 600 Euros which helped us paying at least the smaller things which came up. Thank you all very very much for your help.


As for now, i try to relax and as you can see, i already drawn some nice things or create games. I still cant get over the lose and i will sure have to work on it for a long time...

I still think writting or talking about it helped me here a lot. Thank you all again for reading and all the help. I will see what the near future brings up and im sure, my dad would also give me the push i need to look forward...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGyQxw8f-lM


Posted by WAtheAnum - August 8th, 2021


My friend SHAKUNETSU TIGER is streaming every sunday a super nice stream of a lot retro and fun games. its really nice to watch and he really puts a lot effort into his videos and streams.

So if you wanna give it a look, go here as sample! coz right now hes streaming LIVE :D


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0MzUbIk55nM


Follow his Youtube there! :D

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2oBKsCZVZsB62x-VajY6kw


Posted by WAtheAnum - July 28th, 2021


before i go to deep into it, give me a moment to explain.


First of all, to get THIS out of the way, im not a huge pokemon fan. i dont dislike it but for me, i played the original games and the eevee-remake-version and some side games so its not that i hate them or something i might just dont have a lot of "ideas" if we talk about newer generations. I also dont like the "idea" of an "MOBA" game with Pokemon but, i will explain that in a hot min.


The problem i just have with Pokemon unite is that it is:

1. For free

2. Is a "GOOD" MOBA game

and 3. a lot people still think pokemon is for "little kids"

EDIT: 4. Its actually pay 2 win...​


1. Its Free

Pokemon unite is a game everyone can get on their switch since its free. Which already means you will meet a lot people in there with different "skill level". People which might never played an actual game LIKE Unite or people which are literally overwhelmed with the gameplay since its for sure not its typical pokemon game or like any other "spinoff" they played. This ALSO means: Kids will play it as well. Kids which think its their favorite pokemons and they battle each other...

Kids which doesnt understand the gameplay in the slightest nor do anything to actually REALLY understand what the hell they are doing - more about that in part 3.


2. Its actually a good MOBA

I played it a bit and have to say, it is, SADLY, a pretty good moba game but, as for it is right now , super limited. As i said, i only know some newer pokemons than from gen 1 but even in gen 1 i know we had 151 pokemon...and Unite offers right now how many over all? 20? 25? I mean ok i can see that they "couldnt simply put each and every pokemon inside" but im sure that there is not even ONE POKEMON in Unite from EACH GEN, which is, to be honest, kinda a shame since we are talking about pokemons, a series which literally has, for sure, over 850 pokemons ALONE.

Next to this i have to come back to point 1 (and future 3) that the game is VERY LIMITED again in kinds of communication. Srsly, a lot people seem to ignor the chat, minimap and alike - and those are important since we are talking about a TEAM AND MOBA game. You have to fight as team and know some rules if you have 2 lines you have to defend and 5 people in one team. Sure, you cant 5/2 without creating a 0.5 number so than you have to think logical and again since everyone can get it and we are talking about nintendo, there is BARELY and comunication actually "DOABLE". Sure, you have some shouts you can make but i already WISHED they added 2 shouts like "WHERE THE FUCK IS MY TEAM" or "I ALREADY ASKED FOR FUCKING HELP 8 TIMES! I CANT FIGHT ALONE 4 PEOPLE!" - I think every MOBA player knows what i mean.


Sure, IF you do know MOBA games (like LoL or Dota2), you already see where i might go with this but thats exactly the problem since you just CANT communicate! The shouts you can do get BARELY any attention NOR are they somewhat "big" vissible on the minimap OR screen (yes, you can see small icons and a small shout on the top of the screen but again, it can get easyly ignored, like WAY to easy). Its REALLY IMPOTANT to be able to create "somewhat" a communication with your team and Unite is actually pretty luckluster in that right now, they try but if you try to "spam" the "i need backup!" and that literally is just a "normal white !" sign on the map, it should maybe somewhat changed into "I NEED HELP!" with a louder and REAL "WARNING" jingle and maybe RED marker as warning, it would MAYBE help people paying MORE attention to it than a small white ! on the minimap, srsly (i know this sounds like raging, which it kinda is since i did play LoL in the old days but there, every small alarm had a different color and a noticable loud jinggle so everyone knew what people are "warning"/"mean" if they use such warnings...).


3. "Pokemon is for kids"

And this is the biggest problem. I already hinted it in point 1 that everyone can download it and kids tend to do that to, not willing OR wanting to understand the game and ADDING again the fact that you cant/barely can communicate with your team feels like sometimes youre babysitting. Srsly.

No - this has nothing to do that i rent about "bad players" since im sure in LoL, Dota2 and similar mobas, people begin to learn the game and can be "getting better" in the game since its "build" this way. In Unite, i think a lot kids and people get into it with the mind set still on "pokemon". they are cute they make combat and it only effects "YOU" if you die - which is again in this game wrong since "feeding" (Moba players know what i mean...) is sadly a thing as well in Unite...

I saw people which seem like they "tried" to play the game but didnt got the hang of it, attacking to late, getting no lasthits, running into a 1 v 3 without backup. You know, "this" kind of people and as i said, i think a lot kids actually play this game since, again, the majority sure think still its pokemon, its for kids. I know some adult pokemon fans but they sure dont play moba games so i duno if they are LoL players into pokemon as well (IF you know what i mean with that!).


EDIT:​

4. Its actually Pay 2 win...

A watcher from me on FA (thanks again) actually told me about that the game is pay 2 win and linked me this video WHICH i did watch and i also say, you should watch it as well, for real: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyRFGxncuAk

​It leaves me actually speakless.

Its a Nintendo game and they added something like this. Of course, you could say other games like LoL do that as well but they DONT sell items which affect the gameplay but ONLY SKINS. THIS is literally boosting yourself up with money and making you a walking tank. I mean if you watched the video, he spawncamped there full team of 5 man. ALONE. In another match, he made 17 kills. IN 3 MINUTES...


With that all said, i think it was actually bad that Unite came out "for free" and that it has a pokemon setting. Its again not that im against pokemon, its more or less the fact that its just "to good" for its OWN good since childs will get it, try it, dont understand it, do bullshit in it, dont like it and Unite ends up in limbo and all we have left might be the only "hardcore Moba fans" which slowly begin to actually "overrun" the game...


Posted by WAtheAnum - June 24th, 2021


First of all, thank you all for all your nice comments, condolences and donations. I cant say thanks enough to you all for all the stuff my friends, watchers and you guys did. Its nice to see that still some people exist out there which really wanted to help me so much, offerd their help and more.


Again, i dont blame someone who was not able to donate or did anything else so dont feel ashamed or similar.


But yes, as i said, today was my dads funeral at the graveyard at our small area. We found a really nice place for him and already a place right next to him for my mom since if she dies, she wanna be with him. His Urn went down in his grave with flowers in peace and his closest friends were with our family.

The funeral speaker did also a good job and the funeral was nice and smooth.


Of course, we all cried, mostly my mom, but as the time went by we all understood who we lost and that we had to say our last good bye.


With my dad now in his grave, i feel slightly better - not just for me but as for him. Im sure he found his final rest there in the place he belong, his hometown and his close friends (one of his friends which died some years ago actually has his grave jus a corner around his own grave).


So yes, i think i feel, right now, better. Still sad for sure but better.


So again, thank you all for the help and im glad people did offer it. The donations will today now payed out to my mother so she can pay the costs. Thank you all very much again.